Certified GEEK and AIRHEAD combined

OHKAY!! Now I am already a certified

"no-social-life-programmer/demented-writer/
aspiring-lawyer/ suicidal-teen/
self-proclaimed-GEEK!!!"

Now, how's that for a complete turn of events, eh?

What I mean is, I was once a happy-go-luck, don'-t care as long as I pass, loves-cramming individual. Well, I still love to cram, but I am able to balance "cramming-time" and "flirting-time", but now, I cannot do both at the same time. Me and my ever so trusty computer have been bonding for numerous number of hours now, since I started doing all my school requirements.

I didn't envision my life like this, staring at the computer almost all day computing, typing, forming algorithms, encoding 'codes', all those stuffs that I hated doing back in high school. I wanted to be a lawyer/writer. I want to write novels, defend cases, and all those things. I hate math, I don't want to do things related to programming, well, I want to create some multimedia stuffs from time to time, but that doesn't require complicated programming like what we are doing now.

Let's do the math please, if I hated programming so much, why the heck did I end up taking a computer-related course that is full of crappy numbers that could last me a life time?

I've been doing our case study for Systems Analysis and Designs for almost 2 months now.. And I'm still far from what most people call "DONE" which I call "DOOM". Our defense would be on Thursday, same day with the defense in OS (another helluva programming project).

Sometimes, well, most of the time, I can't help but wonder If I did the right thing in choosing Information Technology. When I was in high school kase, I always get good, if not very good grades in all of my computer classes. (I am not bragging guys! It's true!) That's how simple, and easy and so outdated computer classes were back then. So I thought,

"Hey! If get grades this good, then maybe if I take any computer-related course,

I might excel and maybe be a cumlaude someday!"

See, how confident I was? And now, where does that confident have taken me? To my eternal perdition. I would've foreseen that college life is much more complicated than high school and should have taken a course wherein I'm really interested (Literature or Journalism perhaps), only if I wasn't so effing STUPID and PROUD and a COMPLETE AIRHEAD!!

Oh how I wish I could turn back time and choose another course/career to pursue. I dont want this kind of life, It is like I have already married my computer. ='(

WELL, enough of these rants. I see no sense in it anyway. What's done is done, all I could do is make the most out of this 'whatever' I have now. Actually, I'm not being honest with myself, when I typed in every rant above. With all honesty and amazement, I am actually starting to enjoy this course, well except for a few things here and there. My, my, my.. My mind is so chaotic and contradictory, one moment I am ranting bout my stupid course and now I am saying that I am starting to enjoy it..

Forgive me guys and please don't sue me. Maybe this is just the effect of 1 straight week of sleeplessness due to SAD-ness "SYSTEMS ANALYSIS and DESIGN-ness"

And uh-ahm.. I know I have committed lots of grammatical, typographical, logical, physical, medical, social ERRORS here, again, I ask for forgiveness. I have no time rereading my post, I dont even have the time to type in a post, I just made slight adjustments =D.. Anyway, this is a blog post, a uh-uhm.. sorta diary.. So I think it needs no rereading, re-editing, etc..

OHKAY!! Back to SAD-ness mode.. Ja'