I don't question the Faith.. I question the ways..

I am a proud catholic... not a traditional one but I believe in Catholic teachings and I have faith. I was born and raised in Catholic faith. I have an aunt who is a Sister now and an uncle who almost became a Priest. I live by Catholic teachings and I believe.

Every year my family participates in various lenten activities such as Holy Wednesday Procession, Visita Iglesia and Salubong... However this year, due to conflicting scheds, we were only able to attend the pre-easter mass to salaubong to easter mass event... It was a 3 hr long overnight celebration.

Being me, I've seen many weird and grandiose celebrations already and it takes a lot to surprise and wow me.. but I must admit that last night was the most unconventional mass I've attended ever.. And it wowed me.

It started simple enough.. Fire coming down from the rooftop to light up the year old palaspas.. Blessings.. Prayers.. Nothing out of the ordinary.. Nothing until we entered the Church..

There were interpretative dances for each reading and for each mass song.. Lets not forget the firedancers dancing with real fire and those cheerleaders being tossed from time to time. It was one big concert. I dunno if other churches do it too but the eccentrities of it all amazes and worries me at the same time.

Its a new way of introducing God to people. Its the modern way and as I've mentioned earlier, it is entertaining. I applaud the creative brains behind that because it takes courage and a lot more to introduce that to people. The all out preparations and presentations are worthy of applause and cheers. It is extravagant performance for an extravagant celebration, the resurrection of Jesus Christ... But I cant help wonder....

I remember one anecdote in my theology class where in Jesus said "this is a place of worship and not a market place..." --- And all thru out the mass, I was thinking.. This is a place of worship and not the fairgrounds..

So in last night's mass, I cant help but ask myself.. Is this a place for cheerleaders and firedancers to perform? Who are we showcasing? Jesus Christ's resurrection? Or the dance presentations? Don't the presentations distract the people from listening to the readings? Is that their goal? Provide distraction to test the people's focus and resolve?

I am not questioning the Parish's ideas or whatever, and I think it works or whatever because the parishoners numbers increased and it kept them awake despite the late hour... It kept them entertained.. Good job there..

I just hope that during the mass, the mass goers were all focused and listening to the readings sincerely with all that shenanigans going on at the same time, because forgive me Lord, I know I'm not.

Confessions of a judgmental coed - No more coming back

She must admit, she missed him. It's been almost a year since they last saw each other, last talked. And it wasn't even a pleasant conversation. So seeing him again is like seeing him for the first time. Only difference was, nothing changed. The moment her eyes landed on him, her heart did a little somersault. Different setting, different time, and almost different person but same effect. What the eff!

So there he was, standing, with a smile on his face, waiting for her, empty-handed. Okay, that disappointed her. She was expecting a somewhat romantic setting. With flowers, a big bouquet of flowers, plus chocolates too. Oh well, a girl can dream.

He held out his hand to her and said, "I'm back" and instead of holding out her hand back, she just smiled and said, "so you are"

One year may be enough to heal, one year is enough to forgive, but one year is not enough to forget. Forget all that has been said, forget all that has been done, and foreget all that has NOT BEEN. PERIOD.

"I missed you" he whispered. Those sweet words lingered in the air, those sweet-sweet words that she most wanted to hear then... but not anymore. Not anymore. At least that's what she keeps on telling herself. At least that is what she is trying to believe. To make herself believe.

And when their eyes met, her resolution, her make-believe, she felt it all crumbling down to pieces.

What can one do...

if he is still in love with his friend's girl friend???

Get his own girl friend that looks exactly like his unrequited love.
Poor you... such desperation is so pathetic.

Told ya so, this kind of relationship is not meant to last, it was never meant to last.
I have predicted this, I have prayed for this. And I think the sympathy you are getting is just too much. You don't deserve it.

Maybe I don't know what really happened, maybe I don't understand. But there's one thing I'm sure of. You don't really love, *like maybe*, that other girl. She was just an excuse...

And don't you be expecting any sympathy from me, there won't be any. You a**hole! Souls of guys like you should be burned in hell. I'm shamed by what you did, after all the advices and whatever.

You don't deserve her my dear EX-friend.. so don't fret and ask sympathy from the whole world. Like our mother's used to tell us when we were young, "wag kang umiyak, kasalanan mo yan"

On nonsensical things that spurt out of boredom..

And then he said, "please be with me again..."

Sweet words.. such sweet words...

If he asked that a year ago, he would've gotten a positive answer. A joyful "yes, please". But he asked that one year too late. So much have changed now. Things have moved one and went on their own.

The girl, who was not chosen, who was left behind, whose heart was broken have no more to give. She's reached her limit, she's not the same person anymore. And when asked that same question, all she can say was "i don't need you and you're extra-curricular love"

But how can she stop her heart from beating so? from doing 360degree somersaults? from crying out for his name?

She thought that she has moved on.. let go.. gotten over it...
She burned bridges, she laughed at the flames...

But why is she still feeling this way?