Sunday, December 28, 2008

No more sparkly vampires please...

I know... I know... I've been hooked once with Twilight but that was only for 2 weeks or so and that was one year ago. I've already gotten over it the moment I realized the Bella was lust-mistaken-love-obsessed teenager.

Some people might think that I maybe bitter over not having someone to love that is why I don't like Twilight. Anyway Twilight is for those currently-in-love, hopeless-romantics and the likes. But I am not BITTER; it's just that I've had too much. Twilight has already been over-rated its ridiculous.

I won't do a book review because many have done that already. It would just be like a SSDD thing; same-shit-different-day; BUT OH PLEASE... no more sparkly vampires.

At first I thought that I like vampires that sparkle in sunlight rather than those who spontaneously combust in it. But how wrong I was; I still like vampires who combust in sunlight, at least they seem more realistic, closer to what they were once; human.

I have nothing against Twilight fans; I was a fan once. But please DON'T FORCE ME TO LIKE and ARGUE WITH ME IF I DON'T the book nor the movie. We have our own opinion on things. I am not pressing to you my opinion. Don't press to me yours. IT'S ANNOYING.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Never ever...

Never try to teach a pig to *sing*. It wastes your time and annoys the pig.

I'm a pig... so what?!

Friday, December 26, 2008

Taking a trip down the memory lane...

SUCKS BIG TIME!!

Well, it does for me. =X

To some, reminiscing past events is a refreshing hobby. They are able to laugh at the STUPID things they did back then, they learn from the mistakes they committed, they relive the happy moments. And that WAS my purpose before I took a trip to the past... I wanted to be happy, I want to live the happy moments we shared, I want to be able to laugh to all the things we did; but that was very far from what I achieved.

I just finished reading blog posts (my own and some from old "friends"), it was fun; going back to all the things we did back then but after all that I realize; I HAVE LOST SO MUCH BECAUSE OF MY DAMN PRIDE. The things I lost are the things that I can never have again.

I never regretted what I did. I don't need friends who do not understand me, I don't need people who are not willing to talk to me, I don't need them. It's just that that was my pride talking NOT ME. Because if they listened hard, if they just listened, my heart was screaming for forgiveness for sins I did not do, my heart was pleading for them not to take away the friendship we shared, my heart is saying I need them and without them I'll never be complete again. But those silent pleas were never heard, until everything was gone now.

Told yah so, a travel down the memory lane makes me EMO its not normal. Argh... I hate this post; it exposes me, it is an unmasked Vetzky. It contains all the things I wanted to say to them, all the things I never wanted them to know before. But I've gathered my courage now, and anyway as they always say "its all in the past".

Argh me! I should never have tried to read those posts...

Thursday, December 25, 2008

All I want for Christmas is...

A cork board....

But what I got is a WEIGHING SCALE... what the eff?!?!

I know, I know, I am over-weight; my risk of dying earlier than others is HIGH; but a weighing scale? Oh please!!!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

If it's not a NO then it means YES!

*silence means yes, tentative means yes, unless they say no, it means YES*


Yesterday, a friend said,

"Si ...... boyfriend ni Yvette." then there was silence. For 5 whole seconds, there was only silence. No confirmation, no denial either.Just silence.

Then it made me think. Really, what are we to each other? We are not dating, we go out once in a while, dinner, movie, coffee, but still. It's weird, the feeling is weird when my friends pointed out that there was a lapse of silence before one of us reacted. As if there is a feeling of uncertainty. What are we really?

I can't understand my feelings yet. He is important to me. I think I am important to him also. But there is no spark. It's like we are more than friends, less than lovers. But now I am thinking again. Is there no spark between us yet? I think there is none.

We are too special to each other to risk whatever we have right now and try something totally new. And anyway, I think we are too alike to be a couple. You don't have to be a couple to be special to each other. I bet I'll be that someone who'll make his girl(whoever she is) jealous someday.=))

There, for those curious souls out there, here's my answer to your question:

*we are special to each other, but WE ARE NOT a couple*



Sunday, December 14, 2008

Vetzky and Inan goes Tokyo

The one and only shot I grabbed. (Globe-ISG Xmas Party "Let's go Tokyo")

*both of us should've won best dressed (goodluck sa fur coat inan) =p


Mom's BURPday Blast!!

Just got home from a very sinful (gluttony to be exact) day.

It's my mom's BURPday today, (so is Din's and Ajong's) =D. Hay, super tiring day....
Woke up at around 7am to prepare a birthday breakfast (burnt ham + soggy omelet + sticky rice = "thanks for the effort) Ohwell, at least I did my best. =D Then, went ahead to Trinoma to buy gifts for my mom. Bought a big bag from Charles and Keith (Tito Ferdie's gift) and two boxes of Dolce and Gabanna lotion and perfume set (my gift). The DnG steward was so helpful, so approachable, so doing his job. =D. From after the payment until the gift-wrapping and name writing in the raffle stubs, he did it all. Ohwell, naka-quota na kase siguro siya saken pa lang. =))

Then, my Mom picked me up at Starbucks then went straight to Makati Shang for lunch. And thus the practice of gluttony begun. It was a lunch buffet, the food were all so overwhelming, the desserts were all mouth-watering, and oh... it's sin in its most unadulterated way.=)

After that, went back to Trinoma to do some christmas shopping. Then finally home. Err.. I have so much to blog but I'm already tired, full and so sleepy, so til next time...

TO MY MOM:
You're the BEST mom ever. Without you and your guidance, I won't be where I am today. Thank you so much. You may not have an idea how much you mean to me. But you are my life (bongga!!). I love you so much. Happy BURPday once again.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

ano ba talaga?

Kagabi, gulong-gulo na talaga ako kung ano ba talaga kame sa isa't-isa. Naiinip na ako, gusto ko na ng kasiguruhan, ayaw ko na ng nakabitin lang sa ere.

Matagal ko nang gustong magtanong, matagal ko nang nais maliwanagan, pero hanggang ngayon, nangangapa pa din ako sa dilim. Kaya ngayong na-abot ko na ang aking hangganan, simple lang pala.

Isang bote ng vodka, madameng baso ng sprite, at mas marameng lakas ng loob;

"Ano ang tingin mo saken?" tanong ko
"Mabait at malaki" pabirong sagot mo
"Ang tingin ko sayo mabuting kaibigan" sagot ko naman
"ah. salamat ah" ikaw naman ang sumagot

nagiipon ng lakas ng loob. 2 pang baso ng vodka

"gusto kita, sobrang gusto kita" sabe ko
"ah okay. goodnight" ang tanging sagot mo

Ngayon, alam ko na kung ano talaga ba ang meron tayo, WALA. Meron tayong WALA. =D

He's confusing me....

One moment he's all nice and sweet and the next he is all cold and idiotic.

He's inconsistency, unpredictability is starting to piss me off... Why can't he be just nice if he is really nice or distant... Just one thing, not both. Argh!!!

This thing, not knowing where you stand, or what you are is very frustrating.. argh!!

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Boredom is a bad thing...

And because I was bored, I had my hair cut off... and I am planning to have it trimmed against next week, to make is shorter...

Maybe its not just boredom, maybe the heartache also has something to do with it. But whatever it is, I'm regretting what I've done to my hair now. HAY....

Before I started working, my hair was LONG as in LONG. But when I started working, I was having it cut to shorter extremes almost every three months. Not that it isn't healthy, it's just that I miss my long hair. ='(

Waa.. my hair..


Saturday, December 06, 2008

Huwag mo akong PAASAHIN SA WALA

Sana noon palang ay sinabe mo na
Na ito'y isang kalokohan, wala lang talaga
Hinde yung pinilipit mo pa akong umasa,
Umasa pero sa wala din naman pala mapupunta.

Noo'y ginusto kong huwag paniwalaan
Mga bagay na sadyang kasinungalingan
Ngunit ngayo'y hinde ko na maiwasan
Naabot ko na ang aking hangganan.
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Napaka-walang kwenta. Araw-araw na lang, wala na akong ginawa sa buhay ko kungdi magreklamo sa lahat ng nangyayare. Hinde na ako nakuntento at maya't-maya ay kung ano-ano na lang ang aking naiisip.

Kagabe, kahit sobrang pagod at kulang sa tulog (at lasing) hinde ko magawang piliting matulog ang aking sarili. Habang bumibigay na ang aking katawan sa pagod, patuloy pa din sa pagtakbo ang utak ko. Parang Super computer sa bilis ng pagpproseso at pag-aanalisa ng mga bagay-bagay.Hinde ko pa natatapos isiping ang isang bagay, ay may pumapasok na namang bago.

Ayaw ng gumising ng katawan ko, gusto na nitong matulog, at pinagbigyan naman ito ng aking isip. Ngunit hanggang sa pagtulog ay tumatakbo pa din ang aking isip. Nagpproseso, nagaanalisa... Paulit-ulit. Ano nga ba talaga kase?

Para mo ng awa, huwag mo ako paasahin sa wala....

I want to go to...

... HELL RIGHT NOW!!!

And I wonder why is that?

Everything's going well right now. I have the best job and I'm enjoying it. I have lots of good friends with me. I eat more than 3 times a day. But still, there is this empty feeling I cannot understand. A feeling that's consuming all of me, its starting to show, I'm starting to lose the mask I tried so hard to put up.

This is not a good feeling. A feeling I don't want to have. A feeling that would suit hell best.

So whoever you are making me feel this way, please be good. I don't want to see you. Don't go to hell, I'm heading there myself...

I'm such a LOSER!!!

And for that, I deserve to be in HELL.
Why is happiness so effing elusive!?!?!?! Argh!!!
I think compared to where I stand right now, hell would be a lot better...


Thursday, December 04, 2008

The reason why...

... I don't want to admit that I've already fallen is starting to show.

I get jealous of all the petty things...
I hate things and I don't even have an idea why I hate them...
I start to care much more than I should...

I hate it, err, no I don't hate it. I just don't like it a little bit more than hot drinks burning my tongue. It's not a nice feeling. It hurts like hell, and the pain lingers; it does not fade right away. And you know what's worse? On the time you need sympathy the most, there is none and no one understands. You'll start talking, and no one will even have the patience to listen.

Talking 'seriously' is something very hard for me. But I try my best. Everything may seem like a joke, but not all things can be treated as a joke. Know when to laugh, know when to shut up.

I apologize for the angst. My blog is not meant to be like this. But this is what I feel; these are my feelings translated to words. This is what I am right now. Hate it, love it, I don't give an effing damn. This is me, and if you cannot accept me as it is, then don't go to hell because I am already heading there myself.

Monday, December 01, 2008

I have NO one word.. (I am not even coherent)

Yeah! I went back on my own word...

I always said that I wont join the "Plurk" mania coz I can't see it's purpose, objective, goal, relevance, etc... But I did join..

I have reason, just don't know if it is valid though. Gisela (my friend who migrated to cali) is using Plurk, I joined just to stay in touch with her. Well,that reason sounds valid to me.. =D

Plurky Vetzky