let me let you go... - "lake house"

Yay!! Finally saw lake house!!! hahahaha.. I've been wanting to watch that movie since I saw it's trailer months ago.. Keanu Reeves is hot!hot!hot!.. I would give anything just to take Sandra Bullock's place in that movie.. yay..

Yes, I know.. It is not an original movie.. It was an amercian adaptation of the korean movie "Il Mare".. But I dont care.. I didn't watch the movie for its story anyway.. I watched it because Keanu Reeves was there..

I am so happy.. Keanu maybe old.. Signs of his old age is already showing but he is still undeniably hot!! Oh how I love him..

And.. Regarding my previous post.. Daddy and I are in good terms again.. =).. We talked things over and he admitted that he was wrong.. I admitted my mistake too.. So.. Everything's well now.. I'm happy.. not completely.. but still happy..=)

i'm already 18 for god's sake!!!

Just got home from Jasmine's day celebration.. And just got scolded by daddy for going home late.. Kainis..

He knows, and it is always like this... Everytime I go to Jasmine's bday party, I would go home at around 9-10pm.. Jas house is just 3 to 4 blocks aways from ours.. Then.. all of a sudden he would get angry..

He's ruining my almost perfect day.. I know that he's concerned and worried but please.. be reasonable.. he knew jasmine, and where she lives.. and i told him that i'll be getting home late.. so.. what's the fuss all about..

grrr.. Im so angry I just want to cry..='(

here, there, nowhere..

Hungry. Tired. Sentimental. Freaked out. Dirty. Happy.

Those 6 words summarizes what I'm feeling right now.

Hungry, well that's not unusual. I am always hungry these days. I just ate lunch then after 30 minutes or so, my craving for food will strkie again. My stomach never seems to be contented.

Tired. I flunked my practical test today in IT104. Disassembly and Assembly of PC. Sounds easy, yeah, but we were under time pressure. And JR and I would have finished it earlier only if that stupid fan would cooperate and come off easily. We can't remove the microprocessor chip because of that stupid fan, and that's what took most of our time. I even had an injury. A skin was scraped of my finger and it hurts and it bled and.. okay I'm not going into details. After the exam Alu and I went to Robinsons Manila to pass time. We did some window shopping and some heart to heart girl talk.

And that brings me to being sentimental. We talked about so many things. Our dreams, goals, wants, everything. We talked about our personal life, how shitty it is, how it sucks, and how it still makes us happy. That talk made me think about the past and made me feel a little bit sentimental.

Next is freaked out. Yep, freaked out! We left RP at around past six. I chose to ride the jeepney instead of the LRT because it would be more convenient. Somewhere in UN avenue, a haggard looking scary man got in the jeepney and he seated himself next to me, of all places. At first I didn't paid him any attention, until he started moving towards me bit by bit. I wouldn't have minded, except that the jeepney was semi-empty. Alam mo yun, super luwag. And he still kept on moving. Everytime he move, I also move until there was no space to move onto anymore. Pilit niya pa rin ako sinisiksik. I was scared to tell him off because the man looks scary. I had my hair down so that it covers half of my face. I cannot see him directly but I can feel him moving his face an inch closer to mine. My senses turned up full gear. My heart is pumping wildly against my chest. I have the sudden urge to get off the vehicle, moving or not. It was a gut feeling. I am not usually paranoid, but his face is practically inches away from mine, I can almost feel him breathing against my hair.. I was so scared I was unconsciously gripping my crucifix ring, and praying to whomever saint there is. When I cannot take the fear anymore, when the jeepney came to a brightly lit crowded place, I called up to the driver, "Ma, sa tabi lang." Then I got off the jeepney, but not before I stepped on the foot of that perverted man and got off w/o even an uttered apology.. Hah! Revenge! Actually, I would have unboarded the jeepney minutes earlier, only if it wasn't raining so hard. But it left me no choice, raining or not, I really need to get away from that man.

And that leads me to being Dirty. Because of the rain, and because Philippines could now be dubbed as theFlooding Capital of Asia I was literally walking on mud and flood. And lucky me, I chose this day of all days to not bring my precious hush puppies- not suitable for windy and rainy season- umbrella. I was soaking wet up to my undies even before I was able to get in to another jeepney. The dirt, the grime, the rain. It made my skin so itchy and so yucky! But then, thank God, I made it home in one piece and I made it safe and sound.

And that made me really Happy. God really loves me and did not left me. He answered my senseless prayers at the jeepney and finally, I am home and nothing bad happened to me. Now, all I need is a hot long bath and it's goodnight time for me again.

Hah! I really need a bath now. Then I'm off to dreamland. Zzzzzz...

10 kinds of "manliligaw"

10 kinds of suitors naman.. This is very funny and very true.. Hahaha.. Again.. I commented on each,,

1. Mr. Gwapings - mayaman, gwapo, kilala, at higit sa lahat may wheels. mataas ang confidence nya na hindi sya mababasted, kaya pag nabasted..maapektuhan ng husto ang kanyang EGO. at teyk note, malas mo kung may sour grape attitude pa yan. pwede nyang sabihing "sus kala mo kung sinong maganda e pinagtyatyagaan ko lang naman sya! pwe!"
-->one word "JERK!"

2. Mr. Quickie - ang type ng manliligaw na kada magkikita kayo e wala nang alam na sabihin
kundi "kelan mo ba ako sasagutin?" o kaya "i love you na, ako ba hindi mo pa lab?" kahit na isang
linggo pa lang naman syang pumoporma. kung baga dinadaan nya sa pangungulit para mabilis
ang pagsagot mo.
-->another one worded comment "IMPATIENT!!"

3. Mr. Everything - linya nya ang "sagutin mo lang ako, ibibigay ko sayo lahat, lahat ng magustuhan mo. kahit ang pa buwan o kaya mundo." tanga ka na pag nagpauto ka. dahil pag sinagot mo na yan, makakalimutan na nya ang linyang yan.
-->now, girls need tape recorders with this kind of suitor.. so she'll have evidence that he really said such thing..

4. Mr. Stalker - eto yung type ng manliligaw na pag nagkahiwalay kayo e sisimulan ka sa tanong
na "kumain ka na ba?" pagkasagot mo susundan pa nya ulit ng tanong "nsan ka ngayon?" "sinong
kasama mo?" "anong ginagawa mo?" at kung anu-ano pa. basta tungkol sa daily activities mo
kelangan malaman nya.
--> can also be a daily planner suitor.. =)

5. Mr. Take it or leave it - pag binasted mo ang ganitong type ng manliligaw, asahan mo bukas
may nililigawan na sya ulit. at heto pa, hinding hindi ka na nya papansinin. period.
-->desperate!!

6. Mr. Salesman - dadaanin ka sa matatamis na salita. parang si Mr. Everything din kaya lang sya mas matindi mang-uto. yun bang tipong.."ang ganda ganda talaga ng mga mata mo.." o
kaya "ang kinis kinis mo" o kaya "ang lambot ng mga kamay mo" at iba pang pang-uuto mapasagot ka lang.
-->career oriented, eh?

7. Mr. Good Dog - eto ang nakakatuwang manliligaw. kase payag syang magpaalipin. taga
bitbit ng bag mo o kahit ng mga kaibigan mo. kahit magmuka syang buntot sa tuwing may gala kayo ng mga barkada mo. napapakitang gilas kung baga. pero pag sinagot mo na, for sure gaganti
yan.
-->I want a ssslaaavve!!! =)

8. Mr. Anonymous - motto nya ang "action speaks louder than voice". wala kang kaalam-alam,
nanliligaw na pala. kaya pala ang bait-bait sayo. e akala mo mabait lang talaga. hehe!
-->reminds me of someone.. hahaha..

9. Mr. Second chance - sya ang pinakamasugid mong manliligaw. kahit 100 tayms mong sabihing
ayaw mo sa kanya at wala na syang pag-asa ang sasabihin nya parin "Please give me a second
chance"
-->100th time yet still using the same line? shouldn't that be, "Please give me a 100th chance??"

10. Mr. Romantiko - jologs ang mga paraan nya sa panliligaw. manghaharana, pakikisamahan mga barkada mo, liligawan parents mo at laging may dalang flowers and chocolates tuwing dadalaw. pero madalas nakakapagpakilig sya ng nililigawan nya dahil sa kanyang "malinis na hangarin" awww! (totoo b yan?!)
--> with the extinction of dragons is chivalry..

14 signs of falling in love...

These are the 14 signs of falling in love according to Pupai(Leng's sis).. DOn't know if it' true, just wanted to share it with you,, I commented on each number..=p

14 siGns of fAlliN iNlOve

FourteEn sIgns of faLLing inLove*_^

14.) YOU LOOK AT THEIR PROFILE PICTURE ALL THE TIME...... (->if you have friendster that its..)

13.) WHEN YOUR ON tHE PHONE WItH tHEM LATE AT NIGHT AND THEY HANG UP, YOU STILL MISS tHEM EVEN WHEN It WAS JUST TWO MINUTES AGO. (->who won't miss that?.. jst hanging up?!?)

12.) YOU READ THEIR TEXTS OR IM'S OVER AND OVER AGAIN. (-> reminiscin' eh?)

11.) YOU WALK REALLY SlOW WHEN YOU'RE WItH THEM(->or you're just naturally slow)

10.) YOU FEEL SHY WHENEVER THEY'RE AROUND.(->what if I am really shy? even with other people?)

9.) WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM, YOUR HEART BEATS FASTER AND SLOWER AT THE SAME TIME (->very bad for my weak heart!)

8.) YOU SMIlE WHEN YOU HEAR THEIR VOICE. (->funny voice, i guess)

7.) WHEN YOU LOOK AT THEM, YOU CAN'T SEE THE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU, All YOU SEE IS HIM/HER.(-> now that's creepy)

6.) YOU START LISTENING TO SLOW SONGS, WHILE THINKING OF THEM (->what if I'm listening to slow songs .. uhh.. religious slow songs..)

5.) THEY'RE ALL YOU THINK ABOUT.(->maybe they owe me a big amount of money)

4.) YOU GEt HIGH JUSt FROM THEIR SCENT. (->weird?!?)

3.) YOU REAlIZE THAt YOU'RE AlWAYS SMILING TO YOURSELF WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM. (-> I always smile when I think of joven, yet I am not in love with him.. How is that, eh?)

2.) YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM, OR ANYTHING TO SEE THEM.(-> anything??)

1.) WHILE READING THIS, THERE WAS ONE PERSON ON YOUR MIND THE WHOLE TIME... (-> waah,, I'm weird.. There are atleast 5 person who cam into my mind while reading this..)

That's it.. 14 signs.. True or not.. I have no idea..

unshed tears of an insane girl..

What's wrong with me? This feeling.. It is so unwelcome, yet it keeps on bugging me.. I know "it" meant no harm.. But I just can't help it.. At that very moment, I feel like crying.. and I almost did.. There were tears in my eyes, only that, I didn't let them fall.. Because, it would seem stupid and uncalled for.. I think I'm going crazy..

But really, that made me think.. What if "it" was right?.. Err.. I mean, "it" was already right.. I knew it right from the start.. And that was what makes me feel so bad.. the fact that I knew yet I did not believed it.. I built my world with lies..Stupid, Idiotic lies.. Lies, which for a long time believed was real.. My reality was a lie.. Everything was a lie.. Still, I can't help but hope that they were not..

I really hate this kind of feeling.. Akala ko, I've learn na.. I thought I am strong.. But I guess I'm wrong.. That simple truth which I've known for so long.. It broke me apart.. Especially.. To hear it from people who I hold dear to me.. SHIT!!! Why from them?.. It means nothing.. yep.. It shouldn't mean anything.. yet I got hurt.. It's like a broken tune that got stucked in my mind.. ='(.. I can't forget it.. It keeps on repeating itself..

Unshed tears of an insane girl..

Broken tune, sad melody...
daunting, taunting..

blah..blah..blah...

yokatta!!! I can write again.. I'll continue this poem of mine.. then I'll post it.. Byebye..

watashi no koto daisuki!

Pretending is the most painful yet easiest way out... Once one have mastered the art of pretention.. Nothing would go wrong.. Bad thing is, I suck at pretending.. I thought I've already mastered it.. I guess I was wrong.. I cannot pretend because I dont know how to..

Like in our quiz in IT105 today.. I tried to pretend that I studied and I can surely pass that test.. But I know I can't.. I don't know a thing.. The test paper seems like to speak a foreign language to me.. I read it, over and over again.. But it still sounded foreign to me.. That's when I realized.. I cannot pretend that I am good in school.. When in fact I am not.. The.. I cannot also preten that I don't know someone whom I know very much.. I wanted to ignore them.. But when I saw them today.. It has the same effect on me.. My heart's beating so fast.. I feel like I am hyperventilating.. My throat was blocked.. I feel like crying.. I think I was almost crying.. almost.. the feeling was there, the blockage in my throat, except that.. there were no tears.. not even a drop..

Hahaha!! Even if I suck at pretending.. At least I can't cry anymore... err.. is that a good thing or bad?.. Anyway.. I was in a public place at that time.. I cannot afford to cry.. and Katz wasn't around.. hay..

Got to stop and study.. I have a quiz tomorrow too.. Vetzky no hitoribotsi!

rule #6: forget and forget

According to my "10 ways on how to heal.." the 6th way is to forget and forget.. You've read it right.. Forget and forget.. not forgive and forget.. Wala lang. I can't think of a suitable title eh..

I'm actually super busy right now, I have 2 pending reports, 2 long quizzes, and one RFP for which I don't know what to do.. This past week has been a hell for me.. I've noticed that I was always on the cramming mode and I haven't done anything right yet.. I'm keeping myself busy yet there is no finish product.. In short, Im just wasting my time..

I hate my life as of now.. It really sucks.. and I dont even know why..