Early morning EMO-ness..=D

Salamat...

sa pagdamay sa saya at lungkot...
sa pagintindi kahit hinde talaga naiintindihan...
sa mga pilit na ngiting iyong ibinahagi...
sa mga tawanang walang katuturan...
sa pakikinig na hinde pinakikinggan...

Salamat...

sa pagaalala at pagpapagalit...
sa pagtuturo ng tama at mali...
sa paghihintay at pagtiyatiyaga...
sa pagpapasensya at panguunawa...
sa pagkakaibigan binawi din bigla...

SALAMAT, KAIBIGAN...
sa PANG-IIWAN KUNG KELAN KA KINAKAILANGAN.
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This is something I should not be posting/publishing. Posting something when I'm more emotional rather than rational is a very stupid thing to do.

I made the same mistake before and it did not have a good outcome. And I'll be making that same mistake again.

In my current emotional state, doing this blog is not the best idea because I know that I'll be regretting this in the end. But doing this post is the only thing I can think of doing. I am a frustrated writer; I don't talk too much and writing is my only outlet. I know I'll have regrets, I know the implications won't do me good, I know my mistakes, I know yet I refuse to admit that I know them. Do you get what I'm saying?

What I am writing right now might not be making any sense. It never did. This is a product of my VERY chaotic mind, of a very low emotional stability, of a very confused, alone Vetzky.

This is not a bitter post, I even said THANK YOU. I am still grateful that even though the amount of time we shared is very short, I enjoyed every minute of it. I learned so many things. You taught me so many things. And it makes me so sad to know that these things are short-lived and have to end now. That these things made me a better person and yet, everything would just stop here. It really makes me sad.

But what can I do? You wont talk to me, you're not ready to talk to me and I wont be ready to talk to you too. I think I would never be ready.

So I guess this is just it. We can go no more. Our friendship or whatever we have would just end here. So dear friend, thank you. I was so happy you were there for me, even just for a short time.