thank God. I'm not yet ready...

BATA PA AKO?!?!?

Honestly, talking about 'matured' things such as sex and the likes do not bother me. Though I must admit that I've never, not even once, saw a porn video (anime or real people).

I guess my being open-minded is a factor why I don't avoid talking about 'adult' stuffs. I have nothing against premarital sex. I dont cringe when I hear the word masturbation or anything similar. I don't condemn 'one-night-stands'. I know how things are don. I thing I am made of sterner stuff than any other ordinary girl because I can stomach conversations you only hear often from boys.

And because of those simple facts, I think NO I claim that I am already a grown up. Well, sans the fact that I've never seen a porn film, but considering everything else, I think I'm already matured enough. But then again, I have to rethink my claim.

How do we categorize grown-ups and kids? the way they act? the things they do? the way they think? how they respond to things? How do we know?

Akala ko matanda na ako at kaya ko na makipag-sabayan sa mga tao sa paligid. Pero hanggang kinig lang pala ako. Kwento?? Walang wala.

I've been talking with a friend I haven't seen for a long time. We were so much alike. Well, that's how we became friends anyway. But WE WERE SO MUCH ALIKE BACK THEN. And I guess a lot has changed now. And based from her stories and stuffs, we were SO MUCH DIFFERENT NOW. I am still the same Vetzky, more open-minded, more educated, more informed but the still the same naive Vetzky.

I thought I already know so a lot of things just because I hear them most of the time, and just because stories my friends tell me revolve around things only grown ups know I thought I am already one of them. But then again I am not.

I am not even close. They say that experience is the best teacher, and I guess that teacher and I were not introduced yet.

waa.. BOTHERED nanaman ako. Last time I was this bothered, it took me almost 3 months to get over my shock. How long will it take me now??

I realized, people around me are changing. But I don't want to experience the same change they have undergone, well at least not yet. I think I am NOT YET MATURED ENOUGH.

OO BATA PA AKO! Eh ano ngayon?!?