allergy attacks!!!

damn!! i should have known that that rice had shrimps in it.. after months of not having allergy atacks.. here i am again.. having a shot of my most hated medicine.. oh god!! why do i have to inject the medicine,, cant i just swallow them?? i getting the nick of it now.. im recovering.. thank God!! i really have difficulties in breathing but i'll manage.. damn these allergies.. these will bring fort my doom.. whatever.. thank God.. i still have some stock medicine in here or else i would be staying the night in a hospital again.. eew.. i would prefer being dead than staying in a hospital.. who would want that?!?! i know i dont!! anyway.. i learned something really important today.. don't eat anything unless you know what it contains.. nyahahaha..

I AM AN EMERALD!!!

! You are most like An Emerald !
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senseless..

guess its really time to move on.. live everything behind.. after all, im hoping for the impossible... i really hate this feeling.. to expect for something.. yet get disappointed if it didn't turn out the way i wanted it to.. why can't i have an amnesia and just forget everything for once.. i know i can never have him still i cant help myself.. mahal ko na ba xa?? yan lagi ko tinatanong sa sarili ko.. but im not really sure.. i've cried.. yeah i still do up to now.. i cry for him so many times before.. well, actually,, not for him.. i dont cry for him but i cry because of him.. i wanted him to notice me so badly.. and he does.. but not as i wanted him to.. am just a friend..always a friend.. forever friends.. sana inde na lan ako nakpag-close sa kanya.. maybe i wont feel this.. gadz!! i need a diversion.. i cant concentrate on my studies anymore.. am losing my focus... my mind is always centered on him.. but his' always wanders to someone else.. and worse.. worse.. i cant say it.. am not good in voicing out what i feel.. what more in writing them.. i only wanted one thing.. from the very beggining.. to be loved and never left alone.. feeling ko xe talaga mag-isa na ako.. inde ko masabe toh kay mama at daddy pero feeling ko talaga.. wala lan.. yaw ko ng maging childish.. pero nu ba magagawa ko.. etoh talaga ako.. i want to grow up.. leave my childish antics behind.. act my age.. yaw ko mapag-iwanan ng edad ko.. pero malayo pa hahabulin ko.. gusto ko na lan tumakbo ng tumakbo at tumakas.. gusto ko na lan magpakalayo-layo at kalimutan lahat-lahat.. gusto ko na xang makalimutan.. putik!! ngaun ko lan nafeel toh.. after years of pinning for someone who doesn't know that my feelings exist for him.. only i existed.. only yvette as a friend existed and nothing more.. up to now.. am just a friend.. and till tomorrow i'll just be a friend.. OKEI!! this is getting nowhere... might as well stop this now.. im getting more and more depressed but the moment.. because i know,, no matter how i show him how much i care for him.. he would never notice me.. for am not pretty or sexy to pass his standards... now is the right time to accept that cruel fact.. that i can never be someone special to him.. only a friend..just a friend..

Yey!!!

Yatta!!! saw my ultimate crushie today!!! hahaha... this week is in favor of me!! i saw him last sunday, saw him yesterday, and saw him again today.. waah.. im so lucky.. tapos.. my bestfriend and i met again... yeah.. know i said before that i dont want to see him.. but i cant help it.. he needs my help.. he wanted to remember.. that's all i could do for him.. anyway.. know what? naiinggit ako sa bestfriend ko.. i wish i could forget too.. have an amnesia... just forget everything... especially him... one person i really wanted to forget.. i want to forget his name, his eyes, his smile(yes, it is mushy), everything about him,,, most of all,, everything i felt for him... waah.. ang drama ko.. kaya lan.. yaw ko na.. kakasawa na.. hahaha.. sbe nga ni alu,, its time to move on... at sbe nga ni lolo.. wag ko daw antayin.. naligaw lan un.. he'll find his way to me eventually.. hahaha.. i'm thinking of looking for him myself but.. what if ako naman maligaw.. kaya.. id rather stay where i am.. and let destiny take its course...haha... kaya lan.. panu kung nasama na xa dun sa tsunami? wag naman sana.. hehe la lan.. un lang.. live life to the fullest.. =)

sheesh!!!

life can really be cruel at times... ang sometimes i hate life.. and that sometimes is now!! know the feeling of walking freely along a path then suddenly encountering a very deep mud.. you fell in the mud.. tried to get out but you're going deeper... struggled more.. but still sinking deeper into the mud.. that's what i feel.. can't seem to get out of my mud... and no one even bothers to reach out a hand to help me... i cried out loud... but no one heard me.. or.. no one just listened... tears wanted to escape my eyes... but i wont let them.. they are mine.. and im too selfish to let them out what more to share them to others.. my problems, my burden, mine alone.. but now.. just realized.. even for once.. have to unburden myself.. so that is why im pouring all my senseless rantings here... no one would bother to read this anyway...well, that's all..

just tired..

hiyah!! went to national library today.. and after spending hours of bonding with different books... alleluiah.. i still dont have a copy of the book i needed...curse history!!! sana natuloy na lan kami sa coreggidor.. as if he would read the contents of that research paper.. anyway.. what to do.. hope i can convince sir domingo to let me change my topic.. wish!!! oh well.. im really tired both physically and emotionally.. yup!! emotionally.. hehehe.. im losing it.. =).. spoke to my bestfriend kanina.. i cant look directly into his eyes without crying.. he seems like a lost boy.. his eyes is so empty and clueless.. he shouldn't have went here to visit me.. i cant stand to see him.. i dont want to see him..=(.. mom's right.. i've become too dependent.. i'm not used in not having him by my side and worse.. forgetting me... anyway.. that's God's plan... i have to stay strong.. cannot cry.. not allowed to..

welcome moi!!!

yes!! finally, i've created my very own weblog!!! hahahaha!! yey ang saya!!! oh well, today's our field trip and guess what happened?? NOTHING!!! ohmigoodness... that was the most boring field trip i've ever attended...the only benefit i got from this trip is that i wont have to do research works.. thank God!! anyway, the trip has its share of good experiences din naman.. i met new friends.. my old friends and I bonded.. etc.. narinig ko na rin ung tibok ng puso.. ganda nag xa.. tama c alu!!! waah!! im so sleepy.. lolo xe eh,, magdare daw ba... walang tulugan,,, hehehe... kala niya,, naisahan ko xa.. i slept while we are having a lecture w/ a volunteer from a rizalian cult... hehehe.. anyway.. just want to sleep.. waah!! what a day!! i feel so tired even though the day is boring!! hahaha.. whatever.. nytnyt.. finally.. i have my own blog!!!

jUsT vEtZky...

hi!!

tOiNkZ...

ish me!! Yvette!!