Getting ready for 2007!!!

Year 2006 is approaching its finish line. And before this year ends, I did some "thinking things over" this past days.

Going back to everything that happened, this year was not the most favorable year for me. So many things happened which I didn't want to happen. Or the things I want to happen dont happen.. My 2006 is so stupid, i always end up crying in bed.. Hay naku.. Things happen..=(

But I am very thankful for this year. Though it is my least favored year, still there were blessing that I should thank God for.=).. I gained new friends, kept old ones, and many more. I just hope 2007 is something 'more' worthwhile..=).. I dont want a repeat of 2006, I want something new, something... 2006 for me didn't start good, maybe that's part of the reason why this year wasn't a good year, but its okay.

Im so looking forward to 2007. Im already making my new year list.. Its not yet complete, I still have to do some more 'reflection' in life to complete my top 10.. But as of now, here's a draft of my new year's list.

1.) See DENNIS TRILLO in person AND lose my VIRGINITY to him, only to DENNIS TRILLO! <-- okay, my parents better not read this..

2.) FOCUS! FOCUS! FOCUS!

3.) Learn how to drive.

4.) Prove VERGIL REYES's assumptions WRONG.

5.) Diet and work-out to get a slimmer shape, but if laziness gets into me, to hell with getting slimmer, I'll just sleep my frustrations away. =p

How's that for a new year's list? Pretty shallow, but I tell you this would be very hard to achieve. But I'll do my damn best to achieve if not all at least some, especially my number 1.=p

Be ready for the next big thing 2007, I'm gonna get yah!!=p

of confessions and joke times

waah.. Absent again!! My absences are becoming alarmingly habitual..hmm.. have to do something about it.. i do really have to make a major change in my life if i want to accomplish all my goals..

Can you touch your future? - Father "I forgot his name" mentioned that in our recollection yesterday. He made us close our eyes and try reaching for our future using only our hands. Of course that was impossible. How can I touch my future that way?

That recollection again made me realize so many things.. Like, life is too short <-though I've realized this one long time ago->.. I also found out that we cannot touch our future nor see it, but we can always do something if we want our future to be the way we wanted it to be.

Plan for tomorrow but live for today, I remember Katz telling me that. Some people kase tend to plan so much for the future, they forget living. But I do the opposite. I live everyday as if it is going to be the last day of my life and never plan for my future. Which is a bad thing too.. After the recollection, I realized that I should do what Katz had told me. Plan for tomorrow but live for today. I'll definitely try to do that Katz!! Definitely.

Hahaha.. I remembered, something really funny happened yesterday in the recollection. AS part of the activity, we were given a chance to receive the sacrament of confession. And I think the solemn sacrament turned to a joke time for both me and the father from which I received the sacrament. It goes like this..

me: father, forgive me for I have sinned. My last confession was last year, on a recollection like this one too.
father: okay.
me: uhmm..(Im not good in oral communications, both english and tagalog, i always buckle) father pede po ba magtagalog?
father: oo naman iha, Filipino ako.
I smiled, at least I can speak in my native language
me: father naging super bad girl po ako this past year. as in super bad girl talaga.
father: as in super? *laughing*
he was laughing at me so somehow I felt at ease, I always feel nervous everytime I confess to priests.
me: yes father, super.
then i recited all the sins I have committed, atleast those I can remember
father: super bad girl ka noh *still in teasing mode*

the confession turned to a joke time for both of us, as I look around us (there were lots of priests and students confessing), we were the only pair laughing and talking as if I am no confessing my sins and asking for forgiveness. But I tell you, that confession was not worthless, it may seem like a joke time to some, as it probably was, still I learned a lot from that priest whom which I forgot to asked his name. Though we were joking around, he was able to give me sound advices and all. SO the confession was a success.

Well, after the recollection dash, Jhapi, Jamie and I went to Starbuck T.Morato. Chitchat and bonding moments, then we met up with John at Sm N.Edsa for another rounf of chitchat and bonding moments. I got home at around 8pm. I was so tired, and maybe that was one of the reasons why I had asthma this morning.

Hay, got to go and rest. I'm feeling nauseous.. and I still have to study later because tomorrow is exams day. We have exams in all our subjects.

Byebye!

things dont go my way

Before everything else, I just want to ask all of you to pray for the eternal repose of my Uncle's soul. He died last friday because of cancer. And let us also pray for all the victims of Reming's wrath last week in Bicol. Thank you.

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Since I was a kid, I always ask myself why things turn out the way I wanted them too. And here I am now, a grown up turning 20 next week, and still that question remained unanswered. And up to now, things still don't go my way.

It really pisses me, everytime I don't get what I want. I get disappointed, frustrated and depressed. I really hate the feeling. But there's nothing I can do about it. It always happens. ='(

Katz came home last friday. He will be staying here for two weeks. He came to our house in Bulacan yesterday, to visit my mom, <- according to him. Hmph! I thought he missed me and is dying to see me that is why he came. He only wanted to see mommy pala. =p.. Our house is a mess, mommy had the house painted in preparation for her 40th bday celebration on the 17th. We ate lunch out, as in literally outside the house. Tito Ferdie brought out the table and Katz and I set up the plates and utensils. We cannot eat inside because the house reeks with the smell of paint. I can't stand the smell, me and being asthmatic and all.

I never realized, only then, that everytime Katz is around my world seems livelier. I just hope he never go away again, but as I said before, things dont go my way.

Hay.. Tomorrow is recollection day.. Hope I can reflect and be able to clean up my messy life after that...

Whatever, Im talking nonsense here because I am so sleepy..